A look back at 2012

2 days to go until 2012 ends but yeah as if I care about that.

2012 was the year when I was being my lazy self and I dragged things until they couldn't be dragged anymore (this is usually work-related). 2012 was also the year I grew up mentally and emotionally, I think, so yeay finally, I am emotionally 15 years old as opposed to 10 before this. I don't know whether my mental capabilities have passed the 18-year-old mark, I just knew that I grew up.

I'm more forgiving now (usually work-related too) especially towards myself. I learned to finally accept my own limitations (mostly work-related too) and also to refrain myself from voicing out loud what I had in my mind. And I learned that I suck at my job. Sometime in September, the boss found an error in one of my monthly reports, an error I made way, way, way back in February which resulted in me re-doing all of the fucking reports because all of them are interconnected (and the error just happened to be one of the shits that connecting all of the reports) and I truly hated myself at that time. My colleagues kept silent when I asked for help and I kept thinking, "Bitch, I covered for you when you went on maternity leave. All the fucking three of you! And you refused to help me when I need you?" But then I realised that the three of them had their own workloads and they would help me if they could, it's just that, at that time, they couldn't because the whole department was swarming with workloads. I felt so ashamed with myself when they offered me to help with the typing and all. Thought of resigning at that time because I was so stressed out, and I even went to an interview with one of the Big Fours, but then I changed my mind. I'm still thinking whether staying is the best option though. We'll see whether I'll be staying for long.

And talking about colleagues, I found that most of them are not so bad. As long as I keep my mouth shut everytime they talk and I don't divulge my personal life to the T to them, they can be tolerable, even fun sometimes. And they like to cook and eat! I gained 8 kg ever since I started working there. Dunno whether I'll be able to shed down the extra pound. Exercising is so hard and takes up the time that (to me) is better spent on wasting my time on the Internet.

2012 was the year when I learned to be independent, and I could be very resourceful when I wanted to. I learned a lot in 2012, I learned how to make Oreo truffles (very, very easy, 5-year-old-project kind of easy) and Ikea-like meatballs and a few other easy recipes. It's still a long way for me to become skilled at cooking, but I'm getting there.

I lost some friends in 2012, and gained some new ones. I guess as you get older, everyone just drifted apart and staying in touch just took up a lot of effort and staying away is the better solution. And staying in touch with me takes a lot more than effort, you need patience too, because I'm such a lazy ass and like to trouble everyone around me. I reconnected with some old friends and found that I really liked it. I still prefer books and the internet and movies and music to interacting with humans and I think that's one aspect of my life that will never change.

Iklan jap.

I tweeted that and all I got was one measly reply. Voldemort tweeted the same thing 13 hours after I did and 2,080 RTs? I hate being an unknown sometimes. It happens all the time.

I guess that's all kot.

Yeah my life consists of work-related shits and the Internet only because my social life is pretty pitiful.