my English-speaking skill is deteriorating to the point of embarrassment.

i don't know what's happening, but lately, i find it very difficult for me to form even a coherent, grammatically correct sentence while I'm conversing in English. i think it's ironic because at the time when my writing skill has transformed for the better, it seems that my speaking skill has transformed too, only in the opposite direction.

for more than 10 years, i learned English, and to see that it came to this, is well, sad. i feel like kicking myself for being so stupid. i mean, after all these years of learning, i was supposed to be able to speak in English fluently. besides, it's not as if this country is short of English reading materials. so, what's the matter?

i blame it on my refusal to speak English except when the situations are called for. i converse in Malay everytime, even when i speak with other ACCA students from different colleges. i thought, what the heck, we're Malaysians.

i need to do something about it, if i don't want to be in an awkward situation when i try to look for employment next year.