i know people are getting sick of my whining and complaining about my life. yes, i know, there are others whose lives are in worse conditions than mine, but, hey, so what?

lately, i feel an emptiness in my life. even though i'm surrounded by family and friends that love me, i always feel that something is missing. i tried to fill my days with activities, but the loneliness keeps gnawing at me. i need something fulfilling, i need something that can complete me, something that's more than my studies, my family, my friends, the money at the bank, all the things i possess in this life.

what should i do? should i do what athena (or sherine khalil) in The Witch Of Portobello had done? should i study a dance, or study a calligraphy, or travel around the world just to fill that emptiness? or should i just find a guy, and get on with the life?

i don't think it's that easy, but i'll try. even though i'm sure he won't cure my emptiness, but i know there are certain places in my heart that his presence can fill.

i hope.