Thursday, May 03, 2012

Penat la

I hate my job.

Actually I don't hate my job, I just hate the working environment I'm in.

I hate that every little mistake I do is blown up out of proportions. I hate that the people I work with like to make an issue out of nothing. I hate that everything I say will be used against me in the future. I hate that I keep getting the blame for things that I have no part of and I retaliate by blaming other people when it actually is my fault. I hate that everyone is being dishonest with everyone else. I hate that I can't trust anyone in the whole building. I hate that I can't convey my frustrations. I hate the fact that I can't tolerate them anymore. I hate that I'm becoming more and more like them each day.

But the thing I hate the most is the fact that I'm doing nothing about it. I don't even actively look for a new job so I shouldn't be complaining.

But it's hard to stop complaining when I'm in this situation.

6 comments:

N a d i a said...

whoaa..

banyaknye yang ko benci.


tapi macam bahaye jer situasi dalam opis ko tu..

wani said...

Aku rasa macam diorang ni dah lama sangat kat sini, takde job rotation, tak pernah kena transfer to other subsidiaries so environment memang stagnant sangat.

Masa aku kena audit hari tu, aku cakap yang senior workers patut kena VSS untuk bagi chances for young blood to show what they're capable of and then bila diorang semua ni tau aku cakap camtu, memang teruk aku kena sebab dia ingat aku memandai je sesuka hati cakap konon aku nak position diorang.

Diorang ni memang langsung tak sukakan perubahan.

ijan said...

nape bole kuar perkataan VSS tu masa audit?

wani said...

Dunno it just came out. Aku rasa sebab VSS ni memang dah dalam otak aku so aku tersebut and lepas tu, aku terfikir, dah alang-alang terkeluar, baik aku cakap je terus apa yang aku fikir.

Dah auditor tu sendiri yang tanya "what do you think this company should do in order to increase efficiency?", aku jawab je la.

N a d i a said...

Ooohhhh..

Hmm.. patut lah ko kene ngan diorang.. then, company ko amek ke advice tu? hehehe.

wani said...

NOOOOOOO aku kena sebelum aku cakap semua ni! Sebab aku kena teruk la yang semua benda ni terkeluar kat auditor!

Cilake punya auditor, I told her in confidence and she betrayed me pulak. Which proves that no one can be trusted in that building.