Sad and happy

I think I'm one of those very tak kisah people. I don't know if I come off as a bitchy, very cerewet, mak cik-like to others, well, I don't know, but I still think I'm very tak kisah.

But even my tak kisah has its own limit.

What I have in mind would be much more dramatic if I wrote this post a week ago but I was too busy. What's left now is not anger and disappointment anymore but a lingering sense of relief. Thank goodness you showed your true colours during our first ever overseas trip or I'd be tempted to murder someone (probably you) IF we ever proceed with the other trip plans.

Okay that's one. Here's another.

I'm guilty of letting a few relationships/friendships slide. BUT if I think you're worth keeping and even if it was your fault that we stopped talking in the first place, I would set aside my pride and say "hello" to you after the guilt kicks in. Tapi masak lah kalau sepanjang masa pun aku jugak yang nak start dulu. Why can't YOU set aside your pride this time around and say "hello" to me first? Why does it have to be ME every single time?

Penat lah sepanjang masa pun nak mengalah. I have my pride too you know.

You know what's sad about all these? I shouldn't even write this piece in the first place. I'm not a teenager anymore, I shouldn't be bothered about any of these.

What a sad, sad life I have.