It's not about you

Before I start mumbling away, I just want to say that I think we are all self-absorbed, selfish and conceited somewhat. I mean, have you ever met someone who is totally selfless that he/she would put his/her needs before others' needs every single time (well, apart from your parents, that is)?

I haven't but then I always think the worst of others even before I knew them, so that should come as no surprise.

I really wish that some people would stop making everything is about them. They turn every conversation to themselves, they want to win every argument (actually, I do this a lot BUT I'll concede defeat (something I do a lot too, I might add) if you can prove me wrong. I'm not saying that I'm always right, I know that I'm wrong most of the times. But bitch please. Kalau tak tahu tu, jangan lah cakap apa-apa). They complain a lot. They grumble a lot. And they make the most noises about everything.

Yes, you have problems. I have problems too. Yes, you're stuck in the middle of nowhere. Well, where the hell do you think I am? I need to be heard too. When I asked you what your problems were, sometimes, all I wanted was for you to ask me the same thing. I don't think that's too much to ask, kan?

I know. I make a lot of noise about everything too, but...sigh, a person can only take so much.

I think I'm a fairly nice person. I think. I mean, I rarely turned away a friend in need (well, as far as I know). I lent an ear whenever people needed them. I didn't make a big fuss whenever people opened up to me, no matter how bad their situations were. And I keep most of their secrets to myself. Well, most of the times anyway. I'd try to solve their problems if it was within my power to do so.

Well, that's what I think. I think most people see me as an egoistical, selfish, manipulative, unreasonable, stuck-up bitch though.

I'm PMS-ing. I'm pissed at everything and everyone right now. I even caused a ruckus because of something stupid and unreasonable. Okay, make that several ruckuses and several stupid and unreasonable things. And I really, really wish that people would stop complaining and make everything about themselves. Here's a news flash; the world doesn't revolve around you. Instead of blaming others, maybe you should start blaming yourself first.

What do you get when you're being too self-obsessed? I really want to know. And why did you ask for my opinions in the first place? To get an assurance that you're the most amazing human that has ever graced the planet? To get my unswerving devotion/loyalty/admiration/love/etc,etc? To prove that you're always right?

Sigh.

Yes, I'm all talk. Dunno whether I'll practice what I've just preached, but that's beside the point. We're not talking about me here. I think.

There are so many things in my head right now. I want to write them down but I'm afraid that people won't understand them.

And yes, as much as you want to believe how shallow I can be, I write something like this and it makes you wonder, huh?

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