bodohnya!!!!!!!!!!

this is what i missed. i'm still kicking myself for that. dunno why the sound is a bit off though.

i was ym-ing with Zira last night when the subject about guys came up (actually, we talk about guys 70% of the time) and i bemoaned to her about the lack of romance in my life. we wondered what the hell did we do in that 2 1/2 years we were in Shah Alam that we landed in this predicament. i finally said that we should have hung out more at the Faculty of Engineering instead of going back home at every chance we had. *sighs*. 

too bad we can't turn back the time.

i'm seeing someone right now. i still don't know whether we are at the boyfriend/girlfriend stage or we're still at the getting-to-know-each-other stage. he just broke off with his long-term girlfriend before he contacted me again (we always knew each other), so yeah, i'm his rebound lass. i think he still has feelings for his ex. it hurts, you know.

i'm trying my best to be understanding, but i can't do it anymore. i don't know where this "we" thing might lead. i'm getting tired of these endless, meaningless datings-i'm going to be 24 for goodness' sake. i don't know why i bother anymore. in case you're wondering, i do care about him, or i wouldn't spend my weekends with him. i'm tired of his excuses and apologies. i'm just tired, period. even the promised excellent meals have lost the appeal.

jadi, sahabat-sahabat, kalau ada kawan-kawan lelaki yang single (insert all things good here) just pass my number to them, ok?