Saturday, January 17, 2009

bikini girl, you suck!

i'm heading to MidValley this afternoon for the job fair. before any of you starts rejoicing and making plans to rip me off my first pay, let me tell you that i'm not at the stage where i need a job badly. i'm too lazy to do anything right now except for sitting for hours in front of the computer i need some time to cool some steam off and some TLC before i embark my career journey. i'm going to savour my joblessness period, despite what people are going to say about me.

ever since i started my final semester last July, everybody has been telling me to send out my resumes, go on interviews and leave out my phone number to "potential" employers, which sometimes resulted in my getting some very creepy messages and phone calls. these people just don't get i what i want. so what if i want to delay my career-embarking journey? it's not as if i don't want to work and plant my lazy bum in front of the couch every day, no, i love money too much to do just that. it's just that i'm not very sure about myself right now.

i'm at the stage where i have doubts about myself. i don't know if after 16 years of studying, i'm going to choose the right path for me. i don't even remember what my goals are. i let myself got swayed into the motion until i can't even remember who i'm supposed to be. am i going to be an accountant, the most boring and safe job in the world, like everyone expects me too or should i pursue a career in speculation, something i decently good at but definitely more fun than anything i have in mind. other choices include banking, consultation (although i have to wait years for that), or investment-related jobs a.k.a agents *shudders*. 

yes, i know. my choices are limited. that's the drawback of choosing accountancy as your field of study. but i love number-crunching and problem-solving, i just never thought it could come to this. you know what other option i have? teaching. i nearly bit my uncle's head off for suggesting this. no offense, but teaching is not for me, although i tutored when i was in diploma.

i know at times when even Google is laying off its employees, it's not good for one's health to be choosy. hell, it's not even my intention to be choosy. i just don't want to end up like an old prune as i work my ass off. i need to have fun once in a while. oh scratch that, i live for fun. i don't want to lose my insights and dignity just for a bit of money. i have pride, you know.  

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